Pain
ok here it is....this is just me needing to rant and rave to someone about this and my blog is the only way i see that i can do that to everyone and not do it in person and tick people off...
IM TIRED OF PEOPLE TREATING ME LIKE CRAP
I'm sick and tired of people in my school (teachers and students alike) treating me like I dont matter or like I dont even belong......its really driving me up the F*ing wall....(scuse my language)
but im serious about this....i have only about 2 months left of school before my prom hits and about 2 1/2 months before im finished school completely....i can quit now i know that (besides i made promises to people i intend to keep them)!
I dont know what im going to do about these people....Ive done all i can about it and now its just little things that are ticking me off that arent even worth talking to the principle about .....
like ....telling me i cant sit somewhere,( where i usually sit), because someone else is going to sit there...or getting mad at me because i didnt have time to do homework or because ive been away for so long and not been in class.....(even when they know that my father just got out of intensive care and is now back home.
On top of that my dad had to *do away* with my cat because he was having multiple seasures.....
i couldnt be at home so I left to go see Josh for a while.....then as soon as i walked in the door at home i looked at the freazer where my kat usually sits and he was gone...i was in tears within 2 seconds of walking in the door.......
Some people dont realize this ...but over the past 4 or 5 months.... Ive gone through sooo much pain and dispare that i cant even sleep properly anymore....
like last night for example i woke up at 2:30, and 4:36, and again every 10to 15 minutes from 5:00 to about 7:21...So lets just say that Im not in a good mood today ...and on top of that I ended up talking to my ex b/f junior this morning on the computer ......I told him how i felt and whats been going on with me lately and he did the same and then he told me that i was lieing to myself about him and basically implying that i didnt care even tho i do and always will....(is it true that you never forget ur first love?)...cause that is what i believe ......and that is what i told him....
so right now i am so edgy its not even funny and i just wish that i could drop out get a job and live a life away from all those people who cause me pain and hurt....I WANT OUT OF THIS STUPID BOX... But I lost my key!
thats the most phylisophical way i can put it.....ok then here is another one if you dont believe me.....
"If drinking and driving is illegal, then why do Bars have parking lots?"
IM TIRED OF PEOPLE TREATING ME LIKE CRAP
I'm sick and tired of people in my school (teachers and students alike) treating me like I dont matter or like I dont even belong......its really driving me up the F*ing wall....(scuse my language)
but im serious about this....i have only about 2 months left of school before my prom hits and about 2 1/2 months before im finished school completely....i can quit now i know that (besides i made promises to people i intend to keep them)!
I dont know what im going to do about these people....Ive done all i can about it and now its just little things that are ticking me off that arent even worth talking to the principle about .....
like ....telling me i cant sit somewhere,( where i usually sit), because someone else is going to sit there...or getting mad at me because i didnt have time to do homework or because ive been away for so long and not been in class.....(even when they know that my father just got out of intensive care and is now back home.
On top of that my dad had to *do away* with my cat because he was having multiple seasures.....
i couldnt be at home so I left to go see Josh for a while.....then as soon as i walked in the door at home i looked at the freazer where my kat usually sits and he was gone...i was in tears within 2 seconds of walking in the door.......
Some people dont realize this ...but over the past 4 or 5 months.... Ive gone through sooo much pain and dispare that i cant even sleep properly anymore....
like last night for example i woke up at 2:30, and 4:36, and again every 10to 15 minutes from 5:00 to about 7:21...So lets just say that Im not in a good mood today ...and on top of that I ended up talking to my ex b/f junior this morning on the computer ......I told him how i felt and whats been going on with me lately and he did the same and then he told me that i was lieing to myself about him and basically implying that i didnt care even tho i do and always will....(is it true that you never forget ur first love?)...cause that is what i believe ......and that is what i told him....
so right now i am so edgy its not even funny and i just wish that i could drop out get a job and live a life away from all those people who cause me pain and hurt....I WANT OUT OF THIS STUPID BOX... But I lost my key!
thats the most phylisophical way i can put it.....ok then here is another one if you dont believe me.....
"If drinking and driving is illegal, then why do Bars have parking lots?"
posted by jojo at 8:47 AM
2 Comments:
awwwwww jo it's ok hes in kitty heaven.
i miss my kitty:(
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