*smile, its good for the soul*

One thing that I learned while my dad was in the hospital is that even though at times life can be pretty rough, if you only hold ur head up and smile, you will always have a good day!

My father is finally home, has been since tuesday, he went for his first walk yesterday and went for another one today, he isn't back yet...and he left about an hour ago, so he is doing really well.

I want to thank all of you for praying for my dad...that was very thoughtful, I love you all!

I went through a very rough time, worrying, praying, and crying, If you didnt know, I am more sensative than the average teen should be, meaning my emotions are high strung, so even the smallest thing can hurt me too much...which is why for the past 2 weeks while my dad was in the hospital, i went through a stage of stress, and depression. But he is finally home to make me smile, laugh, and still cry a bit, but its all for love..........

My family is once again whole, but my heart is still missing something....Even though I am only 17, I long for a (future) family of my own. Yes......I do think about that alot....but I know that I am not nearly ready for that yet....I just cant wait for the day when I finally accomplish my goal...to be a loving sister, friend, lover, and mother.......but the last one will have to wait a few years....lol......not ready to go through all that yet!
ya Im being smart...and waiting!
Im not about to go out and get *PREGO* as me and my friends like to put it....No that is going to wait!...at least 5 years.....

But anyways...I am happy, but still not whole...although my life may seem that way most of the time...remember ....
"Things aren't always what they seem, So don't judge the book by its cover"- unkown